jealousy

seriously , i am so jealous with the kid that their parent will buy them everything they want .they dont need to work hard for it. i wish i could have parents that like my friends's parent, they give them what they want. i want i pone 5 , i want i pad with retina display, i want more clothes , shoes and bag. but i know i wont get it from my mom, i have to work hard and earn more money to buy myself what i want ! my mom dont buy me anything since i was in form 5. even during new year! i know , i am grown up , i am an adult now, i should earn for everything i want. i didn't blame my mom. i am already 20. and this is what parent do, they started to let go their kid , let them to learn to survive . okie, so i work for what i want, i earn for my thailand trip, i earn my own degree's tuition fee, i earn the money to buy new stuff. but i am just jealous ! so envy to see my friends with their post about their parent bought them new stuff, i wish i could too, i am not envy with the new things they own, but is because their parent bought them!! and i am so jealous when i see they go travel with their parents.

it is so nice to get presents from parent!!

so i work to get new stuff, my pays is not a lot and i still have to give half of my salary to my mom, she says this is a must! i know, so i just do what she said, but mom, can't u just buy me some clothes for chinese new year? i want the feel when parents bring kid to shop before chinese new year :( it is so nice and lovely!! i can feel it from my friends's picture or status. 

actually i know i never get to buy new stuff! because i will use the money that i left after giving my mom to buy new stuff for my sisters and my mom. i wish i got a sister that will buy thing for me just like my friends's sister ,so i do they same thing to my sisters, so that they feel happy.

i don't know when can i get new phone and own an i pad. but i will try my best to get myself all i want!! 

new year , new life , NEW MV ♥

hey , morning ! AND HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!
yea, just woke up , play poker with sisters until 4 am yesterday . ermm, not good to stay awake until wee hour ,should have some change this year !

yes, this is not a post about new year wish or how hard i party yesterday . 

this is about my babe release a surprise mv for his pudding !!
ohh~ how sweet you are <3 this mv release without any notice and just now when i on my fb the news about his new mv are flooded on my wall ! so good to see this once i open my eyes .
it cheers any boost my day  :D

MY BEST NEW YEAR GIVE EVER !

this is the mv . here you go

love him since i was 13. i being his fans for 7 years and the support will go on! nothing will change no matter what happene !
i love his voice because it is warm , i love his smile because it is charming , love his look <3
but even he spoil his face i will still love him. * nothing gonna change my love for you you oughta know by now.... *
i know i am way to obsessed and over . but this is my blog i do what i want !

here's some other mv from the album ' THE MOMENT'

this is chinese version of i dont believe you from pink. he wrote the chinese lyric himself ♥

我们都是 一边珍惜着过往   一边努力 地奔向未来。

goodbye

well. 31 dec , the last day of 2012.
the world didn't end and life goes on.
times flies, especially happy and lovely moments they go even faster . a lot of thing happened this year, lost my best friend , bunny had the first fight at genting .... i dont want 2013 to come so fast because i dont get to study and have fun with bunny anymore :( *sob sob * we all will go to different course .


yea. like usual i just stay at home, watch drama and fb. these are the only thing i do during those special occasion because they are nothing special to me . i never go for any count down party before . am i pathetic ? :/ no special planning for 2013 because i know i will never follow the plans ,not even once . i always failed to accomplish the task or promises that i gave to myself , but i hold on promises that i make to others :) i just wish that i get to apply and accept by utp and earn 9k before april so that i can pay my tuition fees myself , to make the weight that my parents carry lighter . gonna work really hard next year . anyone that have any event jobs or need part timer, please kindly drop a message for me.

last but not least , happy new year !! and happy birthday mr. wong kang shyan c:

suffering

yes! i know ! my blog is deadly dead!
is been about 430 days i didn't update my blog or even check on it.
i don't know why i cant continue it. i just lost the passion :/
what make me writing today ?
maybe i am really moody today, so i feel like wanna share.i had a 3 months relationship last year with a guy that is way too perfect for me. he is cute and good .so i am insecure when i was couple with him. i decided to break up because i think he deserve a better girl than me . a girl which is cute , pretty ,sweet ,hardworking ,clever ,comes from well do family ,caring ... and another reason is because i think he never love or even like me before ,he just need someone to accompany him and i am happen to be there for him .so he just grabs me like a lifebuoy . okie ,i admit that i am not really into that relationship that time! but it is because i am paranoids and scare ,i scare that he will cheat on me . so i am not  that hurt and i have no choice but to do so. i want him to get someone that is meant for him. a girl which he deserve , i want him to be happy . he is in another relationship about 3 months later. i feel happy for him and at the same time i am not feeling good . but its just a small feeling ! i swear !! just a bit !!!

but i dont know what happened to me today, that feeling has been magnified ! suddenly i feel that i shouldn't do that last time . why should i suffer alone . i am jealous . maybe is because of christmas . it should be a lovely and happy day . everyone should stay with the one they love ,their friends and family .i want and i need it too. i don't know what  happened to me this year. i lost my best friend. he will never ever be there for me anymore . something happened and i hurt him . we are not getting back like last time . i miss that time ! the time we used  to share everything . you tell me your secret ,we talk on phone .... * cries * 

all these feeling just come out of sudden and it come out from no where. it make me unable to breath. is too pain and is too much for me.
maybe i have been alone for such a long time ,maybe what i need is a new best friend and someone who love me .an all new relationship .

20 October 2011 @ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME♥

I AM OFFICIALLY 18 =X

yea~ today is my BIRTHDAY!
happy birthday , yanyan ♥ haha =D

hmm~~ wanna make 18 wishes here as i am 18 this year c:

1. I wanna get straight As for my A-level ♥
2. I want my family and friends are in the pink of health and live happily c: ♥
3. * this one i reserved to those who ♥ me to make the wish for me *
4. I hope bunnies and my friends can do well in their A level too =)
5. I hope the friendship between bunnie and i stay forever♥
6. I wish AARON YAN♥ can come to Malaysia to have his personal concert and i can go !!!! XD
7. I wish the relationship between my best friend in secondary school can remain as last time
8. I wish i can put down my weight !now i am fat fat and chubby de T___T
9. NO PIMPLES and BLACKHEAD come and visit me !
10. I hope i can improve my english.
11. I wish that i can get what i want.
12. I hope more people care about me.
13. I wish i can travel at oversea with bunnies ♥
14. * still can think of it~ wil update next time *
15. * still can think of it~ wil update next time *
16. * still can think of it~ wil update next time *
17. * still can think of it~ wil update next time *
18. * still can think of it~ wil update next time *

1 OCT - 2 OCT 2011 @ Bentong ♥

yea~
went to Elaine's hometown ♥ at night =)
her sister, Ester come and fetch us at about 2300

go bukit tinggi for supper ~
reached her house at 0015++
welcome by her mom~
auntie~ you are so nice ♥

had breakfast with her family on the second day morning

 went back home to take a nap as we are LACK OF SLEEP!!!

elaine wake we 2 lazy piggy (wenyee and i) up at 15++
yea~ time for lunch =D
tomyam ~tomyam~ tomyam!!
we ♥ you ~ muack muack :-*
it is nice~

 fried chicken ~
went to the waterfall nearby her house after our lunch~

 =X

 one of my childhood memories~
didnt take this type of ice cream since i was 15~
have you forget about it?
when was your last time to take this type of ice cream??
miss it ???

didnt walk to the opposite side as the bridge swing and make us feel dizzy @_@

her mom cook for dinner =D
like the food that cook by her mom c:

it is raining cat and dogs.
cant go back to kl yet~
and we wait until 22++
reached kl at 00++

even this is just a 2 days 1 night trip but it is wonderful ♥

1 october 2011 @ Malaysian Philharmonic Youth Orchestra , KLCC

this is just a short post~
went klcc to support our classmate =)
cam whore while waiting for felicia c:

 2 noob face XD

 oh no~~~ she wanna bite me~~~ run 

it start at 1500 but we go at about 1430~
well~
we are late to the orchestra ._.
have to wait at outside
to wait for the interval break of the performance
the music are quite nice =D
had our lunch at sushi king~
we are SUSHI FREAK !!!!
wing and sam went back sfter their lunch =)

while we are just walk around at KLCC before we go home.
 in a fitting roomXD