7 August 2013 @ dreamz bakery : Hon foo happy birthday ! ❤

Happy birthday fat fat.
Lazy to write, so pictures !!!! :DDDDD

 the birthday boy :)

is been long time i didnt meet shi kai.
we were then sing k at shi kai house since the bakery close by 10

Lalalalala, is just some people to introduce :)

Ahahahah. I am back, finally back!
That day he asked me, why I like to take photo for everything, is not like I am a blogger. And I told he , I seriously own a blog, so yes, I write .
Then he mock me and said. " I bet you have been ABANDON your blog for like 3000 years "and he ask for my last log in . 😐😕😥😰😰😰😰😰😰😰😅 he won !!!!
Ya, he is right, is like 6 months I never log in not to say write something.
So yes. I decided to write something that happened in these months.
Scroll back my photo gallery . I decided to start with some people that I met in Utar
17 June. I get to know Danny and it happened to be we shared the same bday,I am so happy that I finally meet one. And some thing much more surprise is there is another one that shared the same birthday with us, which is foong. And later he become one of my VIP in my life, my piggy , my brother :) we had lunch that day, and I met shu en, a super flitter, really good in communication, nice and cute girl, she is in debate team ;)
We also hang out everyday , movie, start gazing. I thought they really like me, and I feel they really care about me, I am so happy that time,

27 July, we went movida, is so cute that when someone in the group get drunk. Ahahahahaah .

life go on , we keep hanging out , life is full with food, fun, friends and movie,

Busy everyday, work on assignment and lab report, utar seriously have heavy loaded homework 

I even have to finish assignment alone because didnt get any group member,

They help me study for tests too, I thought they are really nice to me. 

Until one day, I know that they don't mean it,I mean some of them, they actually don't like me and talk something really bad behind me, so thing really not nice to listens. Like saying I am actually a slut or I have fuck face, I am some one really "cincai" and I can sleep with anyone, how can some of them do this to me, I really treat them as close friend.

WHATEVER! Since it is past tense already so I just let it go, is good too, at least i know who are my real friends now, is enough that I have foong and qiao rou !

And I know who are matter for me, I got my alevel babes, I got my bro and his birdy . That's enough! ☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺

life is full with unknown

not update my blog for about 2 months, no choice, i am too busy, busy earning money. i have been working almost non stop for 2 months, work 10 to 10 everyday, i am so tired right now.and yet i am still bothering by 'what should i take for my degree' , i really hate this issue. i really dont what to study, petroleum engineering or biomedical engineering. seriously, i dont really like both of these course, I LIKE MEDICINE, even is chinese medicine. i still like it. but i am not allow to take chinese medicine as the demand is too low in malaysia!
i am so scared and confuse now. my feeling now is just like the poem, the road not taken, i want both life . i scare i will miss out something nice or interesting if i choose the first instead of the second.
i hate future, because it is so unpredictable. i hate unknown. seriously i dont know what to do right now.

wish list 2013

kinda late to write a wish list right , not really, i am chinese, and my celebration for chinese new year haven't end yet. is just chu jiu ( 9th day of cny ) * ps : if not mistaken :P *
i got some things to do n things to buy this year!

1. get into utp and study petroleum engineering! which i know i hardly accept by utp due to my results so i got a back up plan for myself! :D that will be going UCSI instead of UTP :/ no choice

2. since i have settle down the course i want so i should work hard for it! i wanna get CGPA 3.5 and above for every minor and important test or exam.

3. get start in a new relationship and forget the past! i am so bored with the life that i having right now! i want some change!

4. I want a birthday celebration this year. NO CELEBRATION OR PRESENT FOR ME last year since everyone was busyyyy with a level

5. buy a new i phone or note! and a i pad too, i want these things so muchhhhh.

6. buy a pairs of converse . i want a high cut one even my legs are fat and short! i dont care what others people think anymore.

7. buy 1 pair of birkenstock and 1 pair of filp flop! one for my mom and one for myself :)

8. buy 1 set of make-up kit. i wanna start to learn make up!

9. buy 2 longchamp! same , one goes to mommy one for me! baby step for me :) and slowly i can get all those branded purse or hand bag for my mom, she didnt ask for it, she will never !i just wanted to give her all those nice stuff!

10. save for taiwan 's trip !! i think my mom wanna go taiwan. thats why i choose this place.

arghhhh! all of this cost me about 17 k !! T__T i can get these things if i don't need to pay college tuition fees by myself ! add up with college fees it will take me 30k . god!! how to earn that much!

my due date will be 18.2.2014! HOPE I CAN ACHIEVE IT! wish me good luck ;)

anyone wanna sponsor or send it as a gift for me kindly contact me through email ！ XD JUST KIDDING ! DON'T TAKE IT SERIOUS!

WORK HARD YANYEE! WORK HARD!

*ps : i am so lazy to post about my trip to thailand and about cny this year :X they are really long post!

chinese new year means??

lets have a lovely mood by looking at this picture first :) they say the colours in the picture can actually make people feel better and have a better mood. does it happened to you? it happened to me so i share to all of you ^^ wish you guys have a nice day !

okie. lets start the topic of the day, yes. chinese new year !! does cny means anything to you, to me it does when i am going back to my home town . i love going back home town for cny, i love having cny reunion dinner together. that feeling is so lovely having dinner together for 24 people, it is so crowed so you can only take a small place at the dinning table but is warm, and you get to chat around with you relatives. oh god! i just love that feel! after dinner the kids will play all the firecracker , ps or i pad. the for those youths and adults will all start gamble ! hahahahaha .then for nian chu yi grandmom will play all those cny songs because there are alot of kid in my family .

but all these are not gonna happen to me this year! because i am not going back to home town :( :O
sad sia. this will gonna be a boring cny because i will just stay at home. no cny songs and all those nice stuff for me :(((((((((( so this cny is gonna be so so to me, and i am not excited at all for this cny, it seem like meaningless .

didnt bought much for cny as i am not going out. and some of the clothes i actually bought for cny , i already wore it. so i didnt take the pictures of those clothes. the clothes of the upper part of the picture i bought it at malaysia while the rest of it i bought it at bangkok. i bought 2 pairs of shoes at bangkok too. things at bangkok are so cheap and look nice too, but , you know right when something look nice and cheap, you cant put high expectation on their quality. the money that i spend for the clothes i bought in malaysia is actually about 3x the money i spend at bangkok .

lastly! wish you guys have a happy chinese new year ! gong xi fa cai XD

天秤座的悲哀

"天秤座特执着，特捉摸不透。没有安全感，占有欲强，控制欲强。
容易胡思乱想，多疑，极敏感，嫉妒心强， 最容易吃醋。
忽冷忽热，忽远忽近。
爱顾影自怜，N重性格，严重精神分裂， 特大号神经病。特大号神经病!!!"

对! 这就是我, 我很矛盾. 从来不知道自己想要怎样,想做什么.
从来不知道如何表达,不说爱也不道歉.
什么都往肚子塞, 其实我觉得我活得很辛苦.

ps: sorry. i cant update for the post about bangkok trip due to my laptop is broken down. pictures are in my laptop :/

friendships

read my sister's blog just now * daph-nike.blogspot.com * she is having the same problem that i used to have it last time. yes, about friendships ! is mainly about one of her best friend started to change after his new relationship, not become better but worst. he started to stay away from my sister and his gang . my sister and her gang is now worry about the girl will give him bad influence ---ps : that girl didn't come from good class and seem to have attitude problem---

after listen to my sister , i was like , chill! your best friend will eventually come back to you as long as you never give them up and always try to help. and it seem like everyone will go through all these. just like me! feel glad now, because my best friend seem like coming back to me :)

stay tuned!
gonna update my blog soon.
it will be about a trip that i went last week. * phuket / bangkok *

and lastly , wanna wish one of my high school best friend

NIKO ! happy birthday <3
stay pretty and happy !!

jealousy

seriously , i am so jealous with the kid that their parent will buy them everything they want .they dont need to work hard for it. i wish i could have parents that like my friends's parent, they give them what they want. i want i pone 5 , i want i pad with retina display, i want more clothes , shoes and bag. but i know i wont get it from my mom, i have to work hard and earn more money to buy myself what i want ! my mom dont buy me anything since i was in form 5. even during new year! i know , i am grown up , i am an adult now, i should earn for everything i want. i didn't blame my mom. i am already 20. and this is what parent do, they started to let go their kid , let them to learn to survive . okie, so i work for what i want, i earn for my thailand trip, i earn my own degree's tuition fee, i earn the money to buy new stuff. but i am just jealous ! so envy to see my friends with their post about their parent bought them new stuff, i wish i could too, i am not envy with the new things they own, but is because their parent bought them!! and i am so jealous when i see they go travel with their parents.

it is so nice to get presents from parent!!

so i work to get new stuff, my pays is not a lot and i still have to give half of my salary to my mom, she says this is a must! i know, so i just do what she said, but mom, can't u just buy me some clothes for chinese new year? i want the feel when parents bring kid to shop before chinese new year :( it is so nice and lovely!! i can feel it from my friends's picture or status. 

actually i know i never get to buy new stuff! because i will use the money that i left after giving my mom to buy new stuff for my sisters and my mom. i wish i got a sister that will buy thing for me just like my friends's sister ,so i do they same thing to my sisters, so that they feel happy.

i don't know when can i get new phone and own an i pad. but i will try my best to get myself all i want!! 

new year , new life , NEW MV ♥

hey , morning ! AND HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!
yea, just woke up , play poker with sisters until 4 am yesterday . ermm, not good to stay awake until wee hour ,should have some change this year !

yes, this is not a post about new year wish or how hard i party yesterday . 

this is about my babe release a surprise mv for his pudding !!
ohh~ how sweet you are <3 this mv release without any notice and just now when i on my fb the news about his new mv are flooded on my wall ! so good to see this once i open my eyes .
it cheers any boost my day  :D

MY BEST NEW YEAR GIVE EVER !

this is the mv . here you go

love him since i was 13. i being his fans for 7 years and the support will go on! nothing will change no matter what happene !
i love his voice because it is warm , i love his smile because it is charming , love his look <3
but even he spoil his face i will still love him. * nothing gonna change my love for you you oughta know by now.... *
i know i am way to obsessed and over . but this is my blog i do what i want !

here's some other mv from the album ' THE MOMENT'

this is chinese version of i dont believe you from pink. he wrote the chinese lyric himself ♥

我们都是 一边珍惜着过往   一边努力 地奔向未来。

goodbye

well. 31 dec , the last day of 2012.
the world didn't end and life goes on.
times flies, especially happy and lovely moments they go even faster . a lot of thing happened this year, lost my best friend , bunny had the first fight at genting .... i dont want 2013 to come so fast because i dont get to study and have fun with bunny anymore :( *sob sob * we all will go to different course .


yea. like usual i just stay at home, watch drama and fb. these are the only thing i do during those special occasion because they are nothing special to me . i never go for any count down party before . am i pathetic ? :/ no special planning for 2013 because i know i will never follow the plans ,not even once . i always failed to accomplish the task or promises that i gave to myself , but i hold on promises that i make to others :) i just wish that i get to apply and accept by utp and earn 9k before april so that i can pay my tuition fees myself , to make the weight that my parents carry lighter . gonna work really hard next year . anyone that have any event jobs or need part timer, please kindly drop a message for me.

last but not least , happy new year !! and happy birthday mr. wong kang shyan c:

suffering

yes! i know ! my blog is deadly dead!
is been about 430 days i didn't update my blog or even check on it.
i don't know why i cant continue it. i just lost the passion :/
what make me writing today ?
maybe i am really moody today, so i feel like wanna share.i had a 3 months relationship last year with a guy that is way too perfect for me. he is cute and good .so i am insecure when i was couple with him. i decided to break up because i think he deserve a better girl than me . a girl which is cute , pretty ,sweet ,hardworking ,clever ,comes from well do family ,caring ... and another reason is because i think he never love or even like me before ,he just need someone to accompany him and i am happen to be there for him .so he just grabs me like a lifebuoy . okie ,i admit that i am not really into that relationship that time! but it is because i am paranoids and scare ,i scare that he will cheat on me . so i am not  that hurt and i have no choice but to do so. i want him to get someone that is meant for him. a girl which he deserve , i want him to be happy . he is in another relationship about 3 months later. i feel happy for him and at the same time i am not feeling good . but its just a small feeling ! i swear !! just a bit !!!

but i dont know what happened to me today, that feeling has been magnified ! suddenly i feel that i shouldn't do that last time . why should i suffer alone . i am jealous . maybe is because of christmas . it should be a lovely and happy day . everyone should stay with the one they love ,their friends and family .i want and i need it too. i don't know what  happened to me this year. i lost my best friend. he will never ever be there for me anymore . something happened and i hurt him . we are not getting back like last time . i miss that time ! the time we used  to share everything . you tell me your secret ,we talk on phone .... * cries * 

all these feeling just come out of sudden and it come out from no where. it make me unable to breath. is too pain and is too much for me.
maybe i have been alone for such a long time ,maybe what i need is a new best friend and someone who love me .an all new relationship .

20 October 2011 @ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME♥

I AM OFFICIALLY 18 =X

yea~ today is my BIRTHDAY!
happy birthday , yanyan ♥ haha =D

hmm~~ wanna make 18 wishes here as i am 18 this year c:

1. I wanna get straight As for my A-level ♥
2. I want my family and friends are in the pink of health and live happily c: ♥
3. * this one i reserved to those who ♥ me to make the wish for me *
4. I hope bunnies and my friends can do well in their A level too =)
5. I hope the friendship between bunnie and i stay forever♥
6. I wish AARON YAN♥ can come to Malaysia to have his personal concert and i can go !!!! XD
7. I wish the relationship between my best friend in secondary school can remain as last time
8. I wish i can put down my weight !now i am fat fat and chubby de T___T
9. NO PIMPLES and BLACKHEAD come and visit me !
10. I hope i can improve my english.
11. I wish that i can get what i want.
12. I hope more people care about me.
13. I wish i can travel at oversea with bunnies ♥
14. * still can think of it~ wil update next time *
15. * still can think of it~ wil update next time *
16. * still can think of it~ wil update next time *
17. * still can think of it~ wil update next time *
18. * still can think of it~ wil update next time *

1 OCT - 2 OCT 2011 @ Bentong ♥

yea~
went to Elaine's hometown ♥ at night =)
her sister, Ester come and fetch us at about 2300

go bukit tinggi for supper ~
reached her house at 0015++
welcome by her mom~
auntie~ you are so nice ♥

had breakfast with her family on the second day morning

 went back home to take a nap as we are LACK OF SLEEP!!!

elaine wake we 2 lazy piggy (wenyee and i) up at 15++
yea~ time for lunch =D
tomyam ~tomyam~ tomyam!!
we ♥ you ~ muack muack :-*
it is nice~

 fried chicken ~
went to the waterfall nearby her house after our lunch~

 =X

 one of my childhood memories~
didnt take this type of ice cream since i was 15~
have you forget about it?
when was your last time to take this type of ice cream??
miss it ???

didnt walk to the opposite side as the bridge swing and make us feel dizzy @_@

her mom cook for dinner =D
like the food that cook by her mom c:

it is raining cat and dogs.
cant go back to kl yet~
and we wait until 22++
reached kl at 00++

even this is just a 2 days 1 night trip but it is wonderful ♥

1 october 2011 @ Malaysian Philharmonic Youth Orchestra , KLCC

this is just a short post~
went klcc to support our classmate =)
cam whore while waiting for felicia c:

 2 noob face XD

 oh no~~~ she wanna bite me~~~ run 

it start at 1500 but we go at about 1430~
well~
we are late to the orchestra ._.
have to wait at outside
to wait for the interval break of the performance
the music are quite nice =D
had our lunch at sushi king~
we are SUSHI FREAK !!!!
wing and sam went back sfter their lunch =)

while we are just walk around at KLCC before we go home.
 in a fitting roomXD